Negativity

Something I’ve noticed even moreso lately – you can say there are many ignorant people in the world, and our world still consists of a myriad of social problems – gender roles, racism, etc. Due to this, many people have become very negative just by living in the world today. They get absorbed in history as well as peoples’ ignorance in the present, and their emotions get involved. They don’t realize how negative and absorbed their thoughts have become.

Where I see the problem is they don’t realize how the time they spend thinking about these things affects them — their own minds, perceptions, emotions — as well as the issue itself. The more energy you put into something the more it will grow. You may think that you have a handle on the issue or are above the issue if you’re placing your opinion on it and putting energy into it. But you are actually contributing to the divide between people by reasserting that it exists or has existed. But we want to move past these issues for the future, right?

Just because things are or have been a certain way doesn’t mean they should be or they will be forever. But in order to shift the focus in a different direction, less time needs to be spent even thinking about these things. It’s time to move on and put energy into a more positive direction, even if others are keeping to their ignorance. Remember the issues of the past and present as you wish but don’t dwell on them. Work instead at creating the world in your mind that you want to see manifest in reality. Dreams can come true, and your own thoughts are a very legitimate tool that will shape yours and others’ realities. The issues of the world will hold you down to their level forever if you let them —

“Humans are divided into different clans and tribes, and belong to countries and towns. But I find myself a stranger to all communities and belong to no settlement. The universe is my country and the human family is my tribe. People are weak, and it is sad that they divide amongst themselves. The world is narrow and it is unwise to cleave it into kingdoms, empires, and provinces.” – Khalil Gibran

the meaning of enlightenment

“A young man had spent five arduous years searching for truth. One day, as he walked up into the foothills of a great mountain range, he saw an old man approach from above, walking down the path, carrying a heavy sack on his back. He sensed that this old man had been to the mountaintop; he had finally found one of the wise — one who could answer his heart’s deepest questions.

“Please, Sir,” he asked. “Tell me the meaning of enlightenment.”

The old man smiled, and stopped. Then, fixing his gaze on the youth, he slowly swung the heavy burden off his back, laid the sack down, and stood up straight.

“Ah,  I understand,” the young man replied. “But Sir, what comes after enlightenment?”

The old man took a deep breath, then swung the heavy sack over his shoulders and continued on his way.”

I love this. I can relate.

Zuigan Calls His Own Master

Zuigan called out to himself every day: ‘Master.’
Then he answered himself: ‘Yes, sir.’
And after that he added: ‘Become sober.’
Again he answered: ‘Yes, sir.’
‘And after that,’ he continued, ‘do not be deceived by others.’
‘Yes, sir; yes, sir,’ he answered.

Mumon’s Comment: Old Zuigan sells out and buys himself. He is opening a puppet show. He uses one mask to call ‘Master’ and another that answers the master. Another mask says ‘Sober up’ and another, ‘Don’t be cheated by others.’
If anyone clings to any of his masks, he is mistaken, yet if he imitates Zuigan, he will make himself fox-like*.

 Some Zen students do not realize the true man in a mask

Because they recognize ego-soul.
Ego-soul is the seed of birth and death,
And foolish people call it the true man.

My notes on this story:
This is from a book of Zen stories + koans called “The Gateless Gate”. They are written in a way that can sometimes be hard to understand because they are all aimed at helping to cut through the obstructions in your mind. They must be read and interpreted in a different way than if you are just reading in your typical way to accumulate knowledge.

The lesson in this one is that most people define themselves and act based upon the identity their ego has shaped and defined for themselves. Most people also are fooled into thinking that that is their true nature or who they actually are, when in fact it can just be seen as a buildup of concepts that obstructs their true nature.

Most people in life that you encounter have this buildup to differing degrees. Almost everyone I meet including myself has multiple struggles and challenges with their own ego and identity. Those who have sought out what is behind that and attempted to clear away this “buildup” are exceptionally (yet also relatively) self-aware.

*Foxes are mentioned often in Zen stories as it is a big part of Japanese culture. The way you can interpret its relevance to this story is that foxes often employ the ability to trick others; therefore if you imitate others you are merely just being deceptive.

madness

today i want to vent but I’m not sure what I want to vent about honestly. I think I am just tired as my sleep has sucked majorly this week. All day I have been extremely irritable. Sometimes I have a difficult time dealing with people (when people talk too much – this is a big one, when they don’t drive like I want them to drive because I have road rage, when people say they are going to do something then don’t, etc). My ego often delights in thinking about making “pet peeve” lists because I seem to have a lot of them. My weakness is irritability. It has gotten better over the years, but still.

My life has turned into madness lately (though not in a bad way) with taking on some big projects as well as the personal training certificate and i have about 500 things I want to accomplish outside of that as well.

in progress:

-community health ebook
-personal training studying, anatomy (certain amt of hrs per week)
-japanese studying (certain amt of hrs per week)
-finish book “How to Win Friends and Influence People” (halfway through)
-finish book “Power Foods” (haven’t started yet)
-finish book “Making Ideas Happen” (halfway through)
-more health research so that i can have more info on health site
-regular quick health tip videos
-isagenix prospects, holding contests, online marketing
-aiming for gym 5x/week (currently at about 3-4)
-cook something new once per week (I cook all the time but only the stuff I know how to cook. I want to cook new and better things).

This is the priority list as of now, aside from my side projects + full-time job. There’s quite a bit more but this is what needs to be focused on. Once I clear up a lot of this I will be in a much better position and can start my plant-based nutrition certificate which I am really excited about.

open


1417190_67820290“Vulnerability is the only authentic state. Being vulnerable means being open, for wounding, but also for pleasure. Being open to the wounds of life means also being open to the bounty and beauty. Don’t mask or deny your vulnerability: it is your greatest asset. Be vulnerable: quake and shake in your boots with it. the new goodness that is coming to you, in the form of people, situations, and things can only come to you when you are vulnerable, i.e. open.”

― Stephen RussellBarefoot Doctor’s Guide to the Tao: A Spiritual Handbook for the Urban Warrior

Reflections on Effort

The anxious student asked the Zen master how long to enlightenment. The Zen Master answered a long time, at least 10 years. The student said, “Well I will work twice as hard.” The Zen master said, “Then it will take 20 years.” “No!” said the committed student, “I will work three times as hard.” “Well then,” said the Zen master, “it will take 30 years.”

Do you need to work at being spiritual? No. You already are spiritual. Do you need to work at being human? No. That’s just who you are.

The spiritual path doesn’t require us to get anything. It’s a process of opening to new dimensions of who we already are. It’s a process of awakening to our own truth. It’s a process of allowing ourselves to be authentic.

“It is not by your actions that you will be saved, but by your being.”
— Meister Eckhart

“People ask what must they become to be loving. The answer is ‘nothing.’ It is a process of letting go of what you thought you had become and allowing your true nature to float to the surface naturally.”
— Stephen Levine

i wish…

I wish more people knew the extent to which their minds can create their realities – most people have heard many times that perception is everything. However, I think where people (and myself) have had trouble with this is they are still too attached to perceptions that are influencing them from external sources. Whether that be emotions they experience, society’s expectations or their parents’ expectations, or just what they’ve come to understand people and life as.

There is so much that we can know intellectually, but as in many things, it comes down to how we use that information. Life is difficult; it is full of people who have lost their minds and souls, full of businesses and governments that don’t have you in their best interest. Business often rules all, not humanity. Everything can be cold, harsh, and it can feel like a big letdown from what we thought life should be like.

If we choose to though, we truly can turn every negative thought or perception into something positive or productive and beneficial.

Our minds are truly the gateway to a heaven on earth.

But it takes practice. Daily practice in detaching yourself from what is, and realizing that just because it IS doesn’t mean it should be, or will forever be.

The world can be in ruin, but you don’t have to be. You can be free.

Our minds are the gateway that will take us from this world to the next. The earth and all its people as it is now are a temporary thing, but our minds are ethereal, able to transform, able to create anything.

You just have to put in the effort, and don’t settle for less.

re-kindling my love for design

it is when i observe really impressive design work that i’m reminded why i got into this field. What I didn’t realize at the time is possibly how hard it can be to get to work at that level (unless you are super talented right off the bat and land yourself in the right situation) – because in between, you might end up landing jobs where you’re gaining experience and getting better but having to deal with people telling you how to design things (even though you went to school for it) and forced on small projects like editing flyers.  No thanks.

here are some impressive portfolios i’ve stumbled across:

http://www.minimallyminimal.com/

and of course

http://sagmeisterwalsh.com

Right now I have a big variety in skill that spans across the board of design, development, IT, business, marketing – but I’m really not a master of any of them, because I haven’t worked in a situation that allowed me to work on projects at a higher level and derive passion from them.

My new plan however will allow me to fully direct my own projects and use them to influence people for the better. more later.