I can barely keep my eyes open, but I feel adamant about updating all of my blogs and spending some more time with my macbook pro. The screen…it’s just toooo CLEAR. Gorgeous!

Thoughts have been in and out of wondering what my life is, what I am, why I don’t really feel anything about anything. This is a common thing with me, though. I’m in a perpetually weirded-out state about the nature of things. I’m also always frustrated that being that I’m a creature living on this earth, I am always experiencing things through a unique, sometimes emotionally-influenced perspective, but not one that’s ever truly objective. A lot of us just want to know what everything really IS?

This is why I don’t tend to write down personal stuff on blogs. It’s just really weird, because then I look at all this shit I’m writing and think, “this blabbery ain’t nothing new, nor are these existential crises, I’m just another pea in a pod talking about their mental state. I’m done with this shit.”

The only justification I can find is this: Have a record to look back on later of my experiences in life. That’s a pretty damn cool thing to have. I’m also so not used to writing about personal stuff that’s going on in my life so much as just writing about things I’m interested in and that aren’t personal. So when it comes to actually writing personal things down, I tend to feel like I’m only able to write about the weirdness of personal things. Oh well, maybe I’ll get used to it.